The other day I wrote in my newsletter about this and I like to expand on my thoughts a little more here in this post. I'm curious, How is 2020 going for you so far?
If you look around, I bet it's pretty easy to see how many of us are suffering from the “worthiness wound.” It hides in perfectionism, over-doing, over-giving, overwhelm, or simply not thriving.
Maybe you’ll hear talks about things like:
“I feel overwhelmed, anxious, and stuck.”
“I want to start, improve, expand ….. but I just don’t know where to start.”
“is this all there is…??”
I know I am finding myself in one of those spots at the moment and I did not plan for it! AAARGH!
YES! it happens to me too, you're not alone!
I had it all sorted out for this new Decade. I had been planning stuff for my business and started putting strategies in place …. and then …. I watched the world news and allowed the things that were happening to influence my mood and it slowed everything down.
You know, there was another time when I struggled with this a lot already and felt like I would never break free from this overwhelm and the crappy stories I started telling myself.
I managed to get out of that then and thought I was over and done with that monster….
Hmm, guess not … these beasts crawl back when you least expect it ….
When I over-react to outside happenings and realize that I let my life and work be influenced by them, I get angry with myself. I start to tell myself off.
This results in less productivity in my business etc. and there we go: the downward spiral appears …..
The advantage now is that I know this happens!
I see it, feel it and have to be careful not to get annoyed that it still happens. I need be gentle with myself and flip the energy. Remember that I need to heal that part in me (still) and that this is okay. It's totally fine.
If I am ever going to feel free, peaceful, connected and really in love with my life, I need to understand myself and work with the tools that keep me focused and on track, because I am worth it!
Self-are has never come easily to me. I always put myself last and still have to be vigilent that I take time for myself. Rather than pushing harder so that I won't feel less worthy. This working harder and pushing through is actually a form of hiding and I am so done hiding in that self-imposed box ….
Which brings me to the next phase in the thoughts that arrive when I feel this way: The good girl vs the brave rebel. I have them both, many of us have them. This internal struggle, again, is something that you can flip.
But I'll write about that next time,
Oh, I am speaking on two on-line summits soon ! Both of them are FREE and I love to invite you to come too!
Starting at the end of this month is:
* Life is Art – the Conscious Creativity Summit – hosted by Deborah Epstein – REGISTER HERE
and opening at the start of February with my talk airing on 3 February is:
* From Worry to Worthy – Ditch your self doubt + create the life you love – hosted by Anné Klint – JOIN US HERE
Look forward to seeing you there!